Everyone has hard times
[i]
I still remember a few years ago, I just started my internship and rented a room on the first floor in a decadent street near the company. Just put a narrow and decaying bed, the walls are damaged, the room has no bookcase and wardrobe, and the bathroom is small and broken. When I first rented the room, it was dusty, damp and wet. I wiped the bed with a towel again and again and mopped the dirty floor and bathroom back and forth for hours.
At that time, I wanted to buy a smart phone for 2000 yuan. At that time, iPhone 4 and iPhone 5 were very popular. At that time, Xiaomi just came out and thought it was good, so he said he liked the 2000 yuan Xiaomi mobile phone very much and recommended it to his colleagues in the company. As a result, it was ridiculed and satirized by most iPhone fans. What's better about Xiaomi mobile phone than iPhone?
I admit in my heart that I can't afford an iPhone.
After more than half a year, I finally bought my own smartphone with my meager salary. That night, I was lying in bed with this smartphone. I was so excited that I lost sleep and realized a trivial dream. Although the salary is no longer so embarrassed, I still use Xiaomi mobile phone, as if I were tracing back the bitter memories of my youth.
At the beginning of the internship, the salary is a little more than 2000 a month. Most of the time, the bank card is less than 1 yuan. What I fear most is the landlord's Dunning. Once I pay the fee, I will pay the rent for three months or half a year, and there is little left in the bank card. After working, I am very backbone and unwilling to let my parents pity me, so I have to minimize the cost of food.
I still remember one day in the winter of my junior year, I suddenly came up with an idea that I had been working hard since I was a student, and I still had to work so hard in college. Despite paying too much, why is it still not good enough and outstanding? It's so common. Maybe you will still work hard all day after work. I have given up too much for the so-called fame and wealth.
So I rented a small room next to the school. For two months, I didn't go to class or work, bought a lot of snacks, hid in my humble room all day, watched movies on the Internet, turned over dozens of books, played games, sometimes learned to learn the piano, slept from 11 a.m. to 5 p.m., indulged in darkness for two months.
[2]
In fact, everyone has the hardest time.
Ang Lee is one of the film directors I admire very much. What moves me most is his life of pie. The thrilling and magnificent pictures and scenes of the film make me want to know this director with great courage and talent. So I bought a movie dream once in a decade and learned his story. The book says,
He defied his father's wishes and resolutely applied for the Department of drama and film at the University of Illinois. But in the American film industry, it's not easy for a Chinese without any background to get famous.
Since 1983, after six years of long and hopeless waiting, most of the time I helped the crew look at the equipment, do some chores such as editing assistant and drama affairs. The most painful experience is that I once ran to more than 30 companies with a script in two weeks and faced the white eyes and rejection of others again and again. He was nearly thirty years old. The ancients said: stand at thirty. And he can't even support himself.
Relying on his wife's meager income, he became a "housewife man". For a time, he wanted to give up movies and change to computer. Ang Lee's wife noticed his depression; After that night's silence, the next day his wife left a sentence before going to work: "Ann, remember your dream!"
I don't like to use someone's success story to define everyone's experience and story. A person can succeed, which covers too many factors. Even many times, I believe in fate or luck.
I always remember what Chen Kun said: I am not the most handsome, my acting skills are not the best, and my IQ is not the highest, but I get so much wealth. In fact, do I pay more? Not much. Chen Kun, who had to work hard to the limit to get a little return when he was young, suddenly felt panic when you got so much fame and wealth without much effort.
Yes, I got rich returns without paying too much effort. Some are just panic.
I also don't like to define the so-called success or failure. For me, a person's success is to do what he likes and make his own efforts for it.
[III]
At that time, there were many colleagues and classmates of my age. We often didn't have enough clothes. We were a real moonlight family. But we like to get together to discuss life and dreams; Talking about their so-called ideal of great scenery, talking about the countries we are most obsessed with, and promising that we will travel together in the future, even though we don't know these countries. Saying that in this life, we will do something amazing in the future.
Then most of us began to get married and run for daily necessities. The road of life seems to many people to complete the rules and routes set by society after all. At school age, I read hundreds of books, but I still can't go to a good university. At the age of work, you can't buy a decent house after several jobs. Those excellent friends I used to be proud of are now beaten back to their original appearance by society. I'm old enough to change the trajectory of my life.
We all have a lot of painful and powerless things. For example, we want a bigger house, but the rent is too expensive. For example, we used to like a person very much and pay a lot, but the other party still doesn't like ourselves, so we can only hold back all the grievances and depression alone.
Regret may be a life-long, predestined thing. Many times you may know that you can't get what you're after, but the most important thing is whether you're willing to pursue it or not.
It's a pity to often hear that so and so jumped out of a building to commit suicide. I have always believed that there is nothing in the world that cannot be crossed. The most important thing is how I find a solution. I believe that any question has an answer.
Everything will pass. Don't worry. The dark clouds will dissipate in the bright sun.
(责任编辑：立暖) |